Today is a winding road...

And yes I’m aware how stupid that sounds.

Theres pieces of my life that work. Like my job(even though I DEFINITELY don’t want to do it the rest of my life) and my boyfriend(<3), but as far as my living situation, and needing more money, and everything else?

Meh. Just meh.

I’m working on this though. A happier, healthier, me.

But theres been sacrafices. For instance, not as much junk food(I know i’m better off though), and certain changes in relationships lately.

But at least I’m working on it. And life all around isn’t bad although I did have a shitty day at work today.

From now on if you tell me I can’t or won’t do something, I’m going to look you in the eye and say watch me. :)

I HATE WHEN MY PARENTS ARE IN TOWN!!!!

“…breathe out.”

Just saying.

Grrr. My head is pounding, it’s hotter then hell in the house because my parents are so old they think everything is cold now, and I can’t have a moment to myself because they are constantly home.

GO BACK TO THE VEGAS HOUSE. PLEASE???

I may have to take Cam’s offer of staying at his house.

..AAAAnnnnnndddd now my mom is in my face lecturing me about “calming down” and how I have anger problems. Ha, “when you have kids you’ll understand why you have to calm down.” A) I DON’T WANT KIDS. And B) Ha. Ha. Ha. Like you’re a good fucking example of a parent. I know you were there for me to provide me a home, food, and money. But support? NO. Happiness(aside from money?) NO. Fuck off.

Okay, rant over.

So I’m sitting here while my boyfriend is laying on the couch behind me, completely passed the fuck out. He’s cute when he sleeps. lol and I’ve only been over for like an hour and a half but oh well. I’m happy to see him even if it’s to be a pillow for a bit.

&& on another boyfriend note, we’ve been together 3 years as of tomorrow. That’s the thing though, 3 YEARS, even with our 2 little uh, bumps in the road. They weren’t easy. As a matter of a fact, they SUCKED. But you know what sucks worse? Being without him. He’s a grump sometimes, a bit anti social at times, and a bit of an ass sometimes, but who isn’t? If he was anyone other then himself I wouldn’t love him as much. He treats me amazingly better then when we were in our rough patch and yeah there are times where I want to kill him I’ve been nothing but happy at the end of EVERY DAY. Despite what some of you may think.

We started going out when we were stupid and 17, and 3 years later where still together, and strong. Our relationship is a bit different then the average one but I know that he loves me, and is legitimately trying WITH me this time to keep things that way. And as long as he’s in, I’m in too. 

So yeah. That’s just my little piece for the night.

“It’s not theres to speculate if it’s wrong and,
your hands are tough but they are where mine belong,
Don’t you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine,
and life makes love look hard.
The stakes are high,
the waters rough;
but this love is Ours.<3”
Ours~Taylor Swift